OK, so, I never blogged about Day 5 of starvation.
The thing is, on day 4 I had a mini break down. A starvation break down.
I struggled to finish my fourth piece, and ran home, where I sat on the couch to watch a movie. I really just wanted to cry. If my roommate hadnt been home I would have caved and eaten something! Thankfully, he was there, and I would have felt REALLY guilty if I had caved.
So I managed to torture myself through the night. Waking up in the morning I didnt feel so bad! Then Scott Debus came to pick me up, to go do Lowcountry Live. Driving in the car Scott says "This is going to be fun, I'm sleep deprived and you're starving'. Did anyone consider this BEFORE sending us two fools off to be on TV. I think not!
I felt stoned. Am I allowed to confess that? Well, like I care, I wasnt ACTUALLY stoned!
We got through Lowcountry Live, with minimal embarrassment. Scott dropped me home and I had to go to the Drug Store to develop a photo reference for my Day 5 painting. This is where things went downhill. Standing at the check out counter, WHY WHY, do they have to put ALLL the candy RIGHT there! I stared, my mouth watered, my stomache cried out in agony, "EAT, please woman EAT!" So I did the unthinkable, I grabbed the biggest bag of peanut M&M's and ran. (well, I paid first). I sat in the car and ate those M&M's like a girl who hasnt eating in 5 days! I guess thats where my story ends. I didnt make it to the end. Now that it's over I'm SO happy to be eating again! I do think the experience was interesting. I've learned that I can, survive and work, without food. It's not just the lack of food thing though. The point is, how many times do we make excuses about things, I cant paint/work/excersize, today because my head hurts, I'm feeling sluggish, I'm down, I'm not in the mood. Well, guess what! Our bodies are built strong, and our minds are even stronger. 7 people, just proved that we can overcome those mind games, we can say YES I CAN!
Friday, November 20, 2009
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Day 4, Starving Artists
It's Day 4.
I don't know what to say, because I cant think straight. I'm walking around like a zombie. I thought things got BETTER after the 3rd day?? Last night was bad, I really wanted to eat. Usually the lavender tea helps, but, it didn't last night. I keep noticing allllll the billboards with burgers and breakfast sandwiches.
This morning I weighed myself, to discover I've lost 6 lbs so far. For someone who really doesn't have weight to lose, that's a lot.
OK, to the important part, THE ART!
Yesterday my painting was MUCH better than the first 2. I still don't think it's as good as I can do, under normal circumstances, but at least it's better.
I have to talk about Spike Kittrell. I think he's having the most noticeable experience here. In the evening, of Day 2, I had finished my piece during the day, and was on my way home. Spike was just beginning. His wood board was blank, and he had no palette. I talked with him about what he was going to paint, and he seemed happy about his final decision. I could tell he was tired, and a little cranky, but I was hopeful he could pull it off. I went home.
On the morning of day 3, I arrived, and took a look at all the paintings completed during the evening before. Spikes was missing. I called and texted him, with no response, until about 1pm.
He called to tell me. "Last night was HORRIBLE. I wanted to leave and never come back, and never paint again! Then, I went home and slept for 13 hours. I had the best sleep of my life. I had an epiphany. I dreamt of painting ideas, and I'm actually excited to come back and get to work, I feel great! I'm ready"
I was happy to hear that. I asked where his painting was, from day 2. He responded, "in the back of my truck, no one can ever see that". Don't worry, I've explained to him that this is an experiment, and no one can judge our talent based on these 5 days. He has to put the painting up, to show the results of this experiment!
I think after this show we will all leave better artists. By doing this, forcing ourselves to finish one painting each day, while under these harsh conditions, we are FORCED, to find some great strength within ourselves and rise to the challenge. This will make us better, and stronger, as our lives progress as artists in the community! Joanna
I don't know what to say, because I cant think straight. I'm walking around like a zombie. I thought things got BETTER after the 3rd day?? Last night was bad, I really wanted to eat. Usually the lavender tea helps, but, it didn't last night. I keep noticing allllll the billboards with burgers and breakfast sandwiches.
This morning I weighed myself, to discover I've lost 6 lbs so far. For someone who really doesn't have weight to lose, that's a lot.
OK, to the important part, THE ART!
Yesterday my painting was MUCH better than the first 2. I still don't think it's as good as I can do, under normal circumstances, but at least it's better.
I have to talk about Spike Kittrell. I think he's having the most noticeable experience here. In the evening, of Day 2, I had finished my piece during the day, and was on my way home. Spike was just beginning. His wood board was blank, and he had no palette. I talked with him about what he was going to paint, and he seemed happy about his final decision. I could tell he was tired, and a little cranky, but I was hopeful he could pull it off. I went home.
On the morning of day 3, I arrived, and took a look at all the paintings completed during the evening before. Spikes was missing. I called and texted him, with no response, until about 1pm.
He called to tell me. "Last night was HORRIBLE. I wanted to leave and never come back, and never paint again! Then, I went home and slept for 13 hours. I had the best sleep of my life. I had an epiphany. I dreamt of painting ideas, and I'm actually excited to come back and get to work, I feel great! I'm ready"
I was happy to hear that. I asked where his painting was, from day 2. He responded, "in the back of my truck, no one can ever see that". Don't worry, I've explained to him that this is an experiment, and no one can judge our talent based on these 5 days. He has to put the painting up, to show the results of this experiment!
I think after this show we will all leave better artists. By doing this, forcing ourselves to finish one painting each day, while under these harsh conditions, we are FORCED, to find some great strength within ourselves and rise to the challenge. This will make us better, and stronger, as our lives progress as artists in the community! Joanna
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Pushing the Limits
So today I have only had 25 oz. of water, 15 oz of fruit juice, a cup of green tea, and two sips of orange juice. I had a fairly calm day today, but inside I am constantly nullifying my thoughts of food knowing that hunger follows if I ponder on the subject too long. I am pushing the limits on my third day.
I'm definitely feeling the effects of not eating, forgetfulness is one of them. I'm a bit more on edge today than yesterday and I am constantly dialing back my physical activities. My focus during an exercise seems to be pretty solid though. Tonight I picked up the guitar and played well through a song that I usually have trouble with.
I can tell that I will have a bit of trouble getting through the next few days. I can make them easier on me by drinking more juice and water but I'm tempted to take this a bit further by limiting myself as I really only have a day and a half left. Truly only doing this for five days is but a shortened experience where others have gone weeks beyond.
We shall see!
-Bennett
Day 3 Starving Artists
I cant believe I've made it 2 whole days without food! This must be a miracle!
Yesterday was rough. It was weird actually. I felt like I'd been smoking, Angela Chvarak mentioned "Several times I thought I was floating".
Like a hang-over, I have moments of feeling fine, like nothing was different, and moments of, 'oh no, I'm going to pass out!" I didn't pass out!
The weirdest part for me, was that all the time I was sitting down, painting, I felt dizzy, and weird, but the moment I got up, and walked around, worked on my Box Robot, I felt fine.
Seth Corts told us a story. He went to the gym yesterday morning. He said he started working out, and then, felt dizzy, and almost passed out, everything went black, then, when he came out of it, he threw up.
As for the paintings, well, I have to say, I'm having a HARD time concentrating. I had to force myself to finish my piece yesterday.
Bennett seems unaffected, his pieces are really cool, and he's working really hard.
Spike is having a hard time too, I think. Spike, as per usual, is defying all the rules! He worked on piece one, into day two, then started piece two, when I went home at 7pm last night. I'll see if he's finished that, I know he was exhausted!
Angela seems OK, I left while she was working, and Shelley and Jessica hadn't arrived yet. I plan to stay late tonight to talk with them, about their progress.
Seth moans and groans a little here and there, but, he seems to be as he is in every other show, quiet and focused!
Surprisingly, no one has caved yet. I said yesterday we'd lost two, but we actually only lost one. That one was due to sickness, not the starvation. To be honest, I expected us to have a drop out, especially this early, the first two days are the hardest..or so they say..so i HOPE!
I'm not sure how much weight I lost yesterday, my scales at the Kulture Klash warehouse. OK, it's 9am, now. I was up at 7, but i stayed in bed till 8. I went to bed at 10pm last night! I cant believe how tired I am. I can usually get up at 8am, and go full force till midnight/1am, then get up and do it all again. I'm REALLY hoping day three is good, so I can stay up all night tonight! I'm going to finish my painting AND my box robot! Joanna
Yesterday was rough. It was weird actually. I felt like I'd been smoking, Angela Chvarak mentioned "Several times I thought I was floating".
Like a hang-over, I have moments of feeling fine, like nothing was different, and moments of, 'oh no, I'm going to pass out!" I didn't pass out!
The weirdest part for me, was that all the time I was sitting down, painting, I felt dizzy, and weird, but the moment I got up, and walked around, worked on my Box Robot, I felt fine.
Seth Corts told us a story. He went to the gym yesterday morning. He said he started working out, and then, felt dizzy, and almost passed out, everything went black, then, when he came out of it, he threw up.
As for the paintings, well, I have to say, I'm having a HARD time concentrating. I had to force myself to finish my piece yesterday.
Bennett seems unaffected, his pieces are really cool, and he's working really hard.
Spike is having a hard time too, I think. Spike, as per usual, is defying all the rules! He worked on piece one, into day two, then started piece two, when I went home at 7pm last night. I'll see if he's finished that, I know he was exhausted!
Angela seems OK, I left while she was working, and Shelley and Jessica hadn't arrived yet. I plan to stay late tonight to talk with them, about their progress.
Seth moans and groans a little here and there, but, he seems to be as he is in every other show, quiet and focused!
Surprisingly, no one has caved yet. I said yesterday we'd lost two, but we actually only lost one. That one was due to sickness, not the starvation. To be honest, I expected us to have a drop out, especially this early, the first two days are the hardest..or so they say..so i HOPE!
I'm not sure how much weight I lost yesterday, my scales at the Kulture Klash warehouse. OK, it's 9am, now. I was up at 7, but i stayed in bed till 8. I went to bed at 10pm last night! I cant believe how tired I am. I can usually get up at 8am, and go full force till midnight/1am, then get up and do it all again. I'm REALLY hoping day three is good, so I can stay up all night tonight! I'm going to finish my painting AND my box robot! Joanna
Monday, November 2, 2009
Getting Juiced
Wow, well two days are gone and I'm about to start the third! I'm digg'n this experience. Actually I'm sitting here wishing that there were more artists available to experience this. Some serious bonding is going on and the stories are just starting to roll in. We'll be sure to compile them so that we can share at KK5.
I'm doing just fine thus far, I've decided along with a few others to do the juice. I'm going to start juicing the weirdest veggies I can find too. I can already tell that my body is burning clean fuel, but I'm not going to predict how I'm going to feel tomorrow. And I would challenge others to try this type of diet. Takes a bit of will power but it's great for giving your body a rest from the daily task of digesting solids.
!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bennett
Day 2 Starving Artists
We made it through day one. Well at least 6 of us did.
I only drank water, and lavendar tea. I was tired, very tired. At about 5/5:30 my face went BRIGHT red, and burning hot to touch. It didnt hurt, it was just weird. I guess that was detox. That lasted till about 6:30/7pm
I didnt go out saturday night, so I managed to get to the kk warehouse at about 10pm. Met scott, got to work and finished my piece by 4pm. My painting came out a bit more graphic than usual. I think it's because I was tired.
I didnt feel hungry until the afternoon/evening. I think it helped that I was busy all day, either working on my painting, talking to the other artists, or painting boxes for kk5. I left the warehouse at about 7:20, when i got home i tried to keep busy, but I was tired, and finally sat down, to watch some Hulu. That's when the hunger set in. It set in HARD. So i decided to go to bed, it's the only think i could think of to do.
This morning I feel fine, i got out of bed at 7:30am, mostly because Marteeny wont let me sleep in! I lost 2.5 lbs. The most amazing thing to me, is that i'm NOT hungry. I'm usually the most hungry in the morning, i NEVER EVER miss breakfast. Right now i'm sipping on Lavendar tea, yum.
I'm about to go return Thursday nights keg, and pick up some lemons and Dark Grade A Maple syrup for the 'master Cleanse" recipe. I'll sip on that today. but honestly, i feel like i could go on just water again....might just try that until i just cant anymore. hmm, I dont even have a headache. This is weird! cant wait to paint today, see what happens. Maybe starvation is good for art??????????????? Joanna
I only drank water, and lavendar tea. I was tired, very tired. At about 5/5:30 my face went BRIGHT red, and burning hot to touch. It didnt hurt, it was just weird. I guess that was detox. That lasted till about 6:30/7pm
I didnt go out saturday night, so I managed to get to the kk warehouse at about 10pm. Met scott, got to work and finished my piece by 4pm. My painting came out a bit more graphic than usual. I think it's because I was tired.
I didnt feel hungry until the afternoon/evening. I think it helped that I was busy all day, either working on my painting, talking to the other artists, or painting boxes for kk5. I left the warehouse at about 7:20, when i got home i tried to keep busy, but I was tired, and finally sat down, to watch some Hulu. That's when the hunger set in. It set in HARD. So i decided to go to bed, it's the only think i could think of to do.
This morning I feel fine, i got out of bed at 7:30am, mostly because Marteeny wont let me sleep in! I lost 2.5 lbs. The most amazing thing to me, is that i'm NOT hungry. I'm usually the most hungry in the morning, i NEVER EVER miss breakfast. Right now i'm sipping on Lavendar tea, yum.
I'm about to go return Thursday nights keg, and pick up some lemons and Dark Grade A Maple syrup for the 'master Cleanse" recipe. I'll sip on that today. but honestly, i feel like i could go on just water again....might just try that until i just cant anymore. hmm, I dont even have a headache. This is weird! cant wait to paint today, see what happens. Maybe starvation is good for art??????????????? Joanna
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